I thought I should take a moment to give you a brief update, after the somewhat maudlin post about my mood I wrote a couple weeks ago.
Things have been mostly better. The convergence of a few factors seem to have positively influenced my ill temper. First, I blogged it out, and that almost always makes me feel better. Second, you all wrote in such amazing, supportive, and empathetic comments- the effect of which was profound. So, thanks for that!
Third, I got my period. Um, yeah, sorry if that is TMI, but as I get older, my PMS gets more erratic and abundant. I have about ten days a month where my hormones seem stable, my head is clear, and my mood is upbeat. I’ll leave it at that.
Fourth, things at work have been a little less insane (no pun intended, haha!), which has made a tiny amount of psychic space more available.
And finally, I believe it is no coincidence that the sun has been beaming. Even on the days when it is still bitterly cold, the clean, clear light prevails as a natural mood enhancer. While the weekdays have been frigid over the past two weeks, the weekends have actually been quite mild. So, I’ve gotten my blubbery body out of doors with the hubs and kids in tow. We’ve gone walking down by the bay, and splashed around the muddy playground. I got a couple of power walks and the endorphin surge was euphoric!
There have been times over the past couple weeks when I’ve been grouchy or have felt hopeless. But they have been moments as opposed to entire days. I’m thinking maybe I’m pulling up and out of the depression, and that maybe spring will see me back on a more even keel. Fingers crossed!
A fellow blogger over at Psychobabble (great blog, check her out!) wrote a post about her own struggles with depression last week. It really resonated with me. It’s called Reminders, and is about trying to remember what feeling good is like when we are feeling bad. She wrote about using journaling to record those good days, so there is something to go back and read to help us remember during the not so good. Anyway, it was a great post, and helpful.
I don’t journal with paper and pen like I used to. But I have Momaste.
So, even if the depressing feelings do resurface (and I know they probably will some day), this post can serve as a reminder for me about feeling good.
This post was brought to you by love and light and happy days. Momaste!